There is a before and after in my life. A before consciousness and an after. October 2018 marks the beginning of life after my “Wake Up.” The first month after a year of pregnancy and losses. The month I committed to “Show Up” and take action to make change. After my losses and almost losingContinue reading “Transformation: October 2018”
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Transformation: Control to Surrender
I controlled everything I could and then lost pregnancy after pregnancy through no fault or action of my own. I spent countless hours lamenting the unfairness of it all. But over time I learned to be grateful for the lessons that all of these experiences taught me. The one I want to discuss again todayContinue reading “Transformation: Control to Surrender”
My First Pregnancy Loss Story – Ectopic
I got my first positive pregnancy test 4 years ago. Today I want to share something I wrote in 2017 reflecting that experience. Bleeding from ectopic pregnancy causes 10% of all pregnancy-related deaths, and it’s the leading cause of first-trimester maternal death. Learn more about Ectopic pregnancies here. If any medical professionals ever read this:Continue reading “My First Pregnancy Loss Story – Ectopic”
Transformation: Choices
I will never forget a conversation I had with a friend years ago when I felt stuck in a stressful job. After complaining to her on a call, yet again, she kindly but firmly told me: Jenn, if you want to talk about making a change I’m here. I don’t want to hear about yourContinue reading “Transformation: Choices”
Reflection on Depression and Hope
Warning: Discussions of depression, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts. A friend recently recommended the book The Midnight Library. As soon as I read the description I knew it was something I needed to read. When I was a freshman in college I wrote a story for English class about a girl who attempted suicide. In theContinue reading “Reflection on Depression and Hope”
Reflections: Hiking Path of Life
I’m in Arizona for the weekend to cheer on my coach and his wife at the NPC USA Championships. Saturday morning a few of us took a hike at Piestewa Park, the second highest point in the Phoenix Mountains. When my friend asked if I wanted to go hiking all I heard was did IContinue reading “Reflections: Hiking Path of Life”
Transformation: Mindset
In 2019, as I was progressing through what I consider the most significant part of my personal transformation, I became obsessed with this song. I listened to it on repeat and remember writing the lyrics down in my journal while sitting in my car before a therapy session. They can say, they can say itContinue reading “Transformation: Mindset”
Transformations: Anxiety
I have mentioned before that I used to suffer from anxiety. I had an event earlier this week that reminded me of the difference in mindset and perspective that I have now compared to just a few years ago. I used to be a person that could not cope with change. On a good day,Continue reading “Transformations: Anxiety”
Co-de-what? : Codependent
A few years ago I was having coffee with a friend at her home and venting about life (in this instance all the ways I needed my husband to step up and contribute to our relationship, finances, managing the household, etc. and how his continued refusal to do so hurt and upset me). She saidContinue reading “Co-de-what? : Codependent”
Past Performance Is Not Indicative Of Future Results
If you’re familiar with investments, you’ve probably seen the disclaimer “Past Performance Is Not Indicative Of Future Results.” I’m putting a little bit of a different spin on it today and saying this applies to people too. They say people don’t change… well, I’d like to show you how wrong “they” are and hopefully inspireContinue reading “Past Performance Is Not Indicative Of Future Results”
Believe Grow Glow 