I missed posting the last few weeks. I’m working on figuring out a lot on how to prioritize my time to achieve my long-term vision, for my business and personal life. And I got COVID and was out of commission for most of about 7 days.
I’ve struggled with clarity and overwhelm because of all the ways that this future could look, but I keep coming back to my original vision in May 2020 of being a motivational speaker.
I just started working with a High Performance Habits coach to keep me laser focused on that vision. Next week I begin my work with a TEDx coach. I started this blog to share my story and help others. That is my goal with public speaking. It’s my “why” behind leaving my career as a CPA to form Believe Grow Glow, LLC.
I’m still learning the “how” on bringing that to fruition. I’m speaking to people more and more about my past traumas, CPTSD, and overcoming depression and anxiety. I found that while I shared those things here, I have hesitated to use those words and share my story on other social media platforms, instead focusing solely on personal growth tips and resources.
While I know the power of those resources and actions in healing and personal transformation, I think the message is falling flat without my story. I want to help people who have survived trauma overcome “surviving” and move into thriving. I want to show them through my lived experiences what that looks like. I want to spread hope that allows others to believe there is more available and possible for them in this world. I know what it is to live through the dark days and think the best you can hope for is relief from the immediate stress and anxiety. And now I know what it feels like to experience joy and authentic happiness. To play, rest, love, and enjoy the freedom to just be and let that be enough. And even to have the courage to take massive scary action in life because I believe in my abilities to bring my dreams and goals to life.
It may sound simple to some, but for people who experienced trauma in childhood it’s the difference between living in a cage where you see a world of black and white only to step outside that cage to be enveloped in a rainbow. When I started to heal myself after pregnancy loss and step out into my authenticity, it felt like being able to really breathe for the first time in my life. So many of us live in cages created by our childhoods. The door got unlocked a long time ago, but we don’t know it because we are too afraid to try stepping out. I don’t know how long it would have taken for me to dare to do things differently if I hadn’t almost lost my life and realized how much I was holding myself back out of fear.
I want anyone that can relate to feeling depressed, anxious, insecure, and afraid to know they can walk this path too.
You deserve everything you want in life: the relationship, career and lifestyle of your dreams exist. You are capable of achieving those things if you dare to start taking action towards them.
Dare to dream my friends. Dare to live.
Believe Grow Glow 