I don’t know exactly when I started journaling by hand, but my first online journal started in January 2004 when I was 16. In addition to journaling, I wrote fanfiction [Harry Potter] and poems in high school and college. At some point after 2009 I stopped writing creatively almost completely, but I have always maintained a personal journal for self reflection and recording my life.
In college my English professor wanted to have one of my papers published. My response to her: I’m going to be an accountant, not a writer. My internal belief: I’m good with numbers. I’m not good at writing.
This belief started at some point around 8th grade. My sister was always recognized as good in English classes and I realized I was good in and enjoyed math. In high school she took all the honors classes while I only thought I was good enough to take math honors. While I made good grades in English, I did not believe I was creative or good enough at writing.
As I’ve come through my journey of rediscovering myself these last few years, one of the many beautiful things I have come to own is that I am and always have been a writer at heart. I love to write and I hope you enjoy reading what I’m putting out.
As I continue on this journey, I will share some of my old writings mixed in with the new. I hope to share old experiences and mindsets along with how I view the world and live my life today. Thank you for coming along.
A Calm Face – 2004
You look at me & see a calm face.
You never assume my expressions are lying…
But if only you could hear the way my thoughts race,
Or see the tears that I long to be crying.
Believe Grow Glow 